Why do I struggle to become a dedicated writer? When I was in college and graduate school, I really did enjoy the required research and writing of papers for classes. My daugther-in-law is an avid writer and does it beautifully. She journals, and I want/need to do better.

The need part comes from a desire for an outlet to remove the words from my mind and transfer them outside my body onto paper, thinking that it might hopefully remove them from my head and continually invading normal thoughts that help me survive the grueling daily schedule that I have.

Maybe I am unrealistic thinking that I will be "smarter" than I truly am if I could just release some information from my head. Others seem to retrieve needed information at will, and I have to think though my thoughts and ideas before I establish my reply. Does this make me appear "dumber" or clueless...I often wonder. Maybe I am fooling myself into thinking that I am a deep thinker.